Friday, May 31, 2013

Then Came The Dry Season

 
When I was young, Mama was quite the gardener. She worked a spot of land in our back yard, which was about 90' x 50'. I used to watch in the spring of the year, as she would take a shovel, a hoe, and till the whole garden. Of course Daddy would help her when he could, but she considered it her project. She would come in at night to a tub of Epsom Salt and hot water after many hours of hard work. The next day, without fail, she would break up the grass from the clumps of soil. Again she would do the same Epsom Salt routine. The next couple of days she would dig her individual rows for planting. Of course different vegetables would require different planting times.

The soil in the spring time has a freshness that says it was ready for seed time. Working with the soil brings you into fellowship with nature. Some seeds had to be planted deep while other seeds had been planted shallow. Some planting required two seeds to a hole, while other planting required more. After planting, Mama would water the garden when necessary. Mama put up a fence made of chicken wire to keep the small animals from eating the plants and produce. Every couple of days after the seed sprouted she would watch not to let weeds choke the plants out. Mama nurtured that garden like a mother nurturing a baby.

After the plants grew, she would go out and pull weeds. It's funny to me, how weeds are stronger and more pervasive then the crop plants.

God provided the sun and the rain, and Mama provided the care and responsibility. Many days would come and go until it was ready for harvest.

Every once and a while the heavens would not yield forth rain; the ground would become parched, although the weeds kept growing. Sometimes this could last for a couple of days or a couple of weeks. All the effort put into the garden, it could be lost by the heavens closing. Not to mention the money put into the supplies. The dryness zaps all the water out of the soil and then the plants. The plants will die if they do not receive the water needed to grow. Mama would take the garden hose and water the garden in the cool of the evening, but never in the heat of the day but in the cool of the evening. After all the care she put into protecting the garden, she wasn't going to let the dry spells overtake the thing that she loved and the thing she put time, energy, and effort into.

We never lacked in the winter because Mama had the foresight to prepare, first of all by making the land ready, planting and protecting the harvest. She also made sure she canned for the fall and winter months. We were never in need of produce.

Do you ever wonder if God really cares for you?

Do ever feel like e everything is trying to choke you out?

Do you ever feel like your enemies are wild animals trying to destroy you before you have fulfilled your life's purpose?

Do you ever go through dry spells in your life?

Do you feel like heaven's doors are shut on you?

Does it feel like these seasons will never end?

Are all of your sources dry?

Do you feel like God is not answering your prayers?

Does it seem like the sinner and the ungodly are prospering and you are not.

You may be going through a dry season. It too will pass. Where is the cool of our evening?

God I trust you to see me through these times. You have done it before and you are doing it this time. I may not be able to see it, but you are bringing me though it and out of it. Your mercies are like the morning dew. They refresh me every morning.

Great is your faithfulness!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

What Has Eyes But Can't See

For all the good you do, they will never, take notice unless it affects them personally.

They will never see your sacrifice.

They will never see your struggle.

They will never know the path you have walked or the roads you have blazed.
Some will not take notice to the ease of the task.

All of the time, energy,  and effort you put in will count as nothing.

Some will say with disrespect,  it was your job to do so.

They watch you everyday. They behold your good.

Some will even go as far as to take credit and honor for what you've done.

They have eyes by they can't see.

You have to look beyond into the future and behold the good of a better tomorrow.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Prayer That Won't Take No For An Answer

There is a song that says,

I prayed and I prayed,
I prayed all night  long.
I prayed and I prayed,
until I found the Lord.

My soul just couldn't be contented until I found the Lord.

For me there is no happiness or contentment in not knowing Gods answer on an issue. Some will get angry when man tells us no or you can't or that's impossible. I go to God to hear what he has to say.

Prayer has no limitations of what God can do. The Scripture says that God is able to do exceeding abundantly above what we ask or think.

Something that exceeds "abundantly above " is out of the spectrum of impossibility as well as beyond the scope of possibility and is not limited by impossibility. It can not be measure by human reasoning. Simply stated, you can not put a limit on what God can do by prayer. He can do anything. He can do all things.

The soul that cries out to God in prayer and that will not set a time limit, great or small,  on the most important activity of the day.  I clearly understands it is not about time, but about the sincerity of the heart. Prayer is over when its over. Sometimes, not until God releases you.

This time that is spent with God is closely associated with intimacy.

During this time there is sharing.

During this time there is singing.

During this time there is a flooding of emotions.

During this time there is thanksgiving and praise.

During this time there is listening.

Some will play sacred, worship, and praise music.
I know some that will dance before the Lord.

This is a time "taken" from our day or night . I stressed taken because sometimes it will not happen unless we take (apprehend like a police) this time from our day. We can not force the hand of God to do our biding. It is not about us going through the blessing catalog of heaven and ordering what we want for our carnal needs. Although that may happen, prayer is a time for learning who God is, and staying in his presence and also getting to know what he wants for and from us. And God does not do for us what we can do for ourselves.

When we start this time with God, many things try to interrupt this time. We have to stand vigilant to stop interruptions and distractions, even if it means setting our alarm clocks to the middle of the night when no one is stirring about.

Like the old negro spiritual song, we must steal away to Jesus.

It is also during this time of intimacy we find out the power we have with him. Nothing sneaks up upon us anymore. We are not caught of guard by anything . No enemy or foe, No weapon or strike, no news event or catastrophic  event will come upon us.

God gives his people the secrets of the world.

God gave Daniel the interpretation of King Nebuchadnezzar's dream.

Daniel says,

Daniel 2:22-23

He revealeth the deep and secret things: he knoweth what is in the darkness, and the light dwelleth with him. I thank thee, and praise thee, O thou God of my fathers, who hast given me wisdom and might, and hast made known unto me now what we desired of thee: for thou hast now made known unto us the king's matter.

Remember it was Daniel that prayed 3 times a day. He was intimate with the Lord in prayer.

The world us constantly telling us no. You can't do this or that unless you do this or that.

The doctors will say according to their medical history of this, you will only live this way or that way.

The doctors will say this illness is terminal.

The lawyers will tell you that you will lose  such and such because of this or that.

The finance people say you can't afford this.

The employer say that you are not qualified for a position.

On an on...

No no no...

We learn very quickly that all real answers are found in prayer.

If God gives you a no then it's a no. If he gives you a no, it is because he sees the road ahead.

It is important for us to know that our life and destiny is in the hands of God.
It good to know that every no that  man has to give, God will redirect and give a yes.

Monday, May 27, 2013

No More Shut Doors


"Visualize this...

I visualized myself sitting on a stool on a stage holding a guitar or even sitting at a piano with my head slightly tilted up. I would sing and, out of my mouth springing forth melodious notes of many themes. I imagined this being the way to bring my gift to the masses, and to bring financial freedom to my family. I dreamed of a day that many artists would sing my written songs. I dreamed, I dreamed, I dreamed...

I met and "fell" in love with a beautiful young lady who gravitated to my side so quickly, even I was so amazed. I hadn't had so many girlfriends in life because I was married to my music. They all understood that I was going to spend a considerable amount of time with my craft. I made that clear from the beginning of every relationship.

We shall call her Sallie.

Sallie had a very savvy business sense. She could take on any business situation and steer it to its success. She could negotiate a contract as if she was an accomplished contract lawyer. Business was not my forte, it was hers. Creativity was my strong suit.

After a year of courting, we got married. Marriage was agreeable with us, or so I thought. I noticed for the first time she liked to fight aggressively and then play the roll of victim, even at times she would go for the total kill, figuratively of course. I never fought a girl in my life and I really never had the reason to fight this one. While I understood arguing for position, I never understood why couples had to fight. All I ever wanted to do was just to love Sallie. Sallie began to become more violent and withdrawn as the days went by. She would coerce me into situations I have never been in my whole life.

Finally one day she finally said it. The thing I most dreaded hearing. "You might as well put an end to this music thing. It’s not working for me. You are my husband and you are going to get a regular job. This crazy to me, because I was working a regular job.

>>>>>I could still hear the music of my dreams calling me. It was saying to me to press forward past the words of another's inward anger of past failed relationships>>>>

She now was in full mode of total annihilation of my dreams. She went to my music equipment and threw things on the floor.

After 2 or 3 years of this I couldn't take it anymore. My family said I was a fool. Her family looked upon me as foolish. I just gave up on my dreams. I thought that this would make her happy, but no it got worse. When I was changed into what she wanted and its not who she met, she became dissatisfied with what I became.

The game "I can change  

You have to love the one you're with. You've got to be in love with who they are. You cannot kill their dreams. You cannot destroy their aspirations. When one has dreams, they bank everything they are upon it. It is their total personality. It is what they have become in years of building their being.

I am a shell of what I am, totally devoid of my sanguine personality I once possessed. A zombie, I was the living dead. This is also the time my blood pressure began to rise and I began to have stomach problems.

Two are at fault, the one who did it and the one who allowed it to happen.

Why did you allow it to happen?

Two reasons:

1. I didn't believe in walking away.

2. I thought maybe I was being ridiculous for having a dream that could possibly fail.

I let her kill my dreams I allowed it to happen. I let her convince me that my dreams were not worth pursuing.

After 18 years, I have recommitted to my dreams. This round, I will not allow anyone tell me to stop pursuing the thing I was created to do.

If someone cannot see my dreams, than they cannot be a part of my dreams.

The difference between now and then is not just the age factor, but I have entrusted things in the hands of the Lord.

Set before me is many doors. When one closes another one opens.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Never Just Lay Down


Joe Said, "never just lay down".


I marveled at this statement. I pondered it and I kept it in my mind for over two weeks. I thought it to be something we Christians can put into practice...

I hadn't seen Joe in a few years. We worked together on the rod line at the same plant back in 2004. He was an assembler and I was a forklift driver. Joe believed in putting in a day's work for a day’s pay. He never stole time. After working with Joe, I noticed that he would get dizzy. He would stretch out his arms to balance himself so that he would not fall. He would fight to stay balanced. Many times I would just pray quietly and ask God to help him.

Years later, reacquainting myself with him, I asked him, Joe how did you ever get through those times and that sickness? He looked at me as if trying to study my question before he answered.

Joe said, never just lay down. I was not going to let it conquer me. He said, if you lay down, you are surrendering to it.

Now Joe is not particularly religious, but to me, he spoke with the voice of a trumpeting angel.

We give up too quickly.
We sometimes throw in the towel long before we achieve the impending victory. If we have to fight we might as well give up.! We say in defeat, victory is for those others.

In the bible faith is a shield and is accompanied by a sword. They are weapons for battle. If we get without our sword, we must use our shield.
We can't just lie down and surrender to enemy. The greatest part of the battle is when we become without. The greatest part of our personal conflict is close combat when we are looking the enemy in the eye. I am not glorifying battle because in the battle, death can be moments or inches away.

Joe's statement is focused on the center of the battle when we are battle worn, we must stand there and fight despite how we feel.

This life we live is about moving forward.

Joe's statement is when you have lost all of weapons and the only thing we can do is move to escape the enemy's sword. When we are off balance and can't find equilibrium.

Must keep moving,
Can't give up...

Survivors are those who never give up.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Who Says Stuff Like That


"Sometimes we Christians say the craziest things, or course I include myself also. It was awhile back, however, it was said".

A "prophet" walked up to me and said, I am going to take that preacher's anointing because he is not doing anything with it.

I was really taken aback, not because he didn't have what he thought as a basis in the scripture for saying it, but he was not doing anything with what he had. How could he so readily see the issues in the others, and not see any issues in himself.

Every gift and anointing comes with a price. Some by fasting and prayer, some by trials and tests, some by hours spent perfecting an aptitude in certain areas, but they all have a price. Not to mention the price of the giver. Gifted, anointed, called, appointed, and talented, these are all gifts from and of God. Both are for the use in natural and spiritual arenas.

God suited our individual gifts to us, and for us. They move in us and around us. They attract like-gifts to us. By using our gifts, we feel needed and useful. We become empty without the use of them. I saw an elderly pianist blush and act like a teen when asked to play a song. Some have tried to abuse the gifts of others by trying to control them. It is like trying to control a butterfly, you wind up killing or enslaving it. There are thousands of stories that reveal this. A wise leader will cultivate a gift, and push the gifted forward to their fullest potential. However, many have been cut off before they had any time to develop. The two gifts in which I speak are music and ministry.

As musician I don't feel subservient to any other musician. As a minister I don't feel subservient to any other minister. My parents taught me to yield my gift unto to Lord. Just like the drummer boy in the song. I play and give my best for him pa rum pa bum bum.

There are copy cats for everything, but there is nothing like the original. Mom always said, don't copy anyone else, you just be you. I have strived over the years with all that I have, to give from the depths of of my soul.

When someone says they want to take someone else's gift I am thrown for a loop. To me it is no more than robbery of another person's coat. A tailor made coat is made to fit just one person. It moves with that person's natural lines.

The talents in the scripture are about managing resources. It is about making resources multiply. Not about controlling or robbing others. When God makes you a steward over resources he knows that you have the ability to multiply them.
I am not a judge, but many with have to answer to God on what they did, or did not do with his resources. Gifts are about praise and worship. The prophet who said he was going to take the anointing of another would fall and fail, in trying to use something that he has not proven.
 He would first have to pay the price.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Daddy Said

Daddy Said

I was in the 4th grade when my father told my brother and I to go and get our ping pong equipment from our friend Hugh. Instead we had a "better idea". Our friends invited us to play baseball.

Oh how I loved playing baseball. It was one of my only outlets. I was either practicing piano lessons, doing homework or in church somewhere in my spare time. Yes, baseball was my great escape.

Mom had always given me the continuing  instruction to always be careful because the enemy desired always to sift me as wheat. In other words divide me into a thousand places so that I was useless to everyone. She always felt I was called of God to be an ambassador. She felt that the enemy of God was always trying to take me out.

The baseball game was going very well. Robert was up to bat. Strike one, then strike two was called. Robert seemed a little anxious. The pitcher released the ball. It made contact with the bat. In excitement, Robert let the bat fly. The bat made contact with my  nose. The only thing I remember was seeing white squiggly lines against a black background Then I remember my brother taking me home with my nose busted wide open. I met my mom and dad as I went in the house.

Dad was looking very angry. Mom was looking emotionally upset. Dad asked, didn't I tell you to go get your equipment and come straight back?

I was trying to figure out why didn't we come straight back. Dad rushed me to the hospital. Four stitches later, we were on our way home. My dad seeking a punishment for my disobedience said, you might not get to go on your field trip. No anything but that, I thought. He let me rest on those words for a few days. Mom did eventually speak in my defense. I enjoyed the field trip.

As  an adult this story has spiritual significance for me. When "Daddy God" tells us to do something there will always be distractions along the way. Enticing voices will pull on us. Enjoyment will call out our name. I don't what led my biological father to tell us to come straight back. All I know my disobedience caused me to suffer undue hurt and pain. I carry to this day, 41 years later, the scar of my disobedience. What spiritual scars am I carrying due to my spiritual disobedience.

The enemy desires to destroy us. He desires to sift us as wheat also. I think about the goodness, mercy and grace that God gives but I also think about the scars.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

You Just Shouldn't Cuss


The first step in the right direction.

I realized I was wrong. There were things I could not take back. Sometimes my words work against me. What was I to do? I felt trapped like an animal. I felt pushed into a corner. So I came out with very offensive words.

Oh God, I'm a Christian and words like that shouldn't come from my lips.
Words like that are meant to mow people down.

I realize others will have no conscious about those types of words. They will not give it a second thought. To them it is second nature. For me that is no excuse. Even if I have done it before there is no excuse.

Abusive words are not words that I should speak...

My business partner and I were jammed for time. He is more of a brother to me. It had gotten late in the afternoon. The bank will be closing very shortly. My only concern was getting the utility bills paid. It took two signatures to get the funds. The utility company had just sent us a final notice.

I looked over at Benjamin; he was having a good time with Tina. Tina was not his girlfriend, but he was very fond of her.

Come on, we're going to be late, l kept repeating. I got in the vehicle and waited for ten minutes. Ben is the type that is never concerned about anything. The house could be on fire, he will just look at it burning. We need to go now, I said, frightened of the closing time. Ben look at me as only he could, and returned talking to Tina. I hollered out of the window, if we don't go now we won't make it and the utilities will be shut off. Benjamin kept talking as if I wasn't there. Finally he casualty walked to the vehicle, and got in.

Soon after Benjamin got in, I began reading him the riot act. Words came from my mouth that even shocked me.

How can this be happening? I am saying everything but the right thing. I cannot stop the magnitude of what is being said. It felt very much like a dream, where I am watching myself say things that I shouldn't say and cannot stop myself.

Finally just as quick as it started it stopped. Now on the way to the bank Benjamin didn't turn to the right or to the left, but kept his head straight forward. He had neither a smile or a frown. Needless to say we did not make it to the bank in time.

Okay, it was if I threw a large stone in a glass house and I couldn't take it back. The spotlight from above was on me. It didn't matter that Benjamin procrastinated. It didn't matter that he was talking to Tina. The only thing that mattered is the fit of rage I threw.

How do I get out of this one?

First I had to say a silent prayer to God. Forgive me Lord. Then I turned to Benjamin and said forgive me for what I just said to you. There is no excuse for that type of rage.

I learned that day not to allow rage to get the best of me.

I learned you cannot allow my temper to dictate my actions.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

The Maze

The Maze

We run from corner to corner
Making our way from pillar to post

We run into so many dead ends
Until experience give us hope.

Marking our steps all the time which in actuality seems like a waste 

Wisdom  takes hold when
we don't go
In the old familiar place

Life is sometimes a maze
Life is sometimes a chase
Life is sometimes a race
Life is sometimes a place

Observe everything along the way and learn from your experiences .

In Love

You're good with my good could be something very special.

But that's not what I'm concerned about.

What happens to each other when we show our bad?

We face the inevitable without a doubt.

We hide what we don't want the other to see with love in our eyes

Neither one is trying to be deceptive but this is the way we mark the prize.

Pay attention to detail!

On Aging

Take advantage of what you have while time is in your side.

The time will come wherein only memories you will abide.

When youth is the tide flooding in
The key is to watch the ebbing tide

This truth you will not hide.

Change is inevitable

The Poison We Eat

They found children eating peeling paint chips on walls full of lead.

We found out that eventually they would wind up mentally slow or eventually  dead.

And now they are genetically  putting the poison in seed stock ,  we are feeding our children GMO's.

And they're asking us  in tragic comedic-prose, what are the dangers and who really knows?

Eating and sleeping at the same time.

A Disaster (A Verse)

My friend started a relationship

He was on his way to happily ever after

He forgot to check the history of his goods

Now 20 years later it's a different matter

He got a real life disaster

Yes life is a business and it pays to check ahead

Sometimes you may never know what you have until you're almost dead

Bad Habits

Just the other day my friend picked up a habit he forgot to drop

Now the habit has him barrel, lock, and stock

What a-maze-ly
What a slavery